- Socially unhandy and phobic
- Alone while others walk in pairs or groups
- Almost 30 and never had a relationship
- Studied something I wish I never had
- Lost, confused, and dependent
- Unable to do and learn the smallest things.
- Afraid: afraid of everything. even afraid of living
- Totally "dumb" about the world around me. I hardly have a clue about the latest films, music. or groups. In fact in all subjects I'm dumb and unable to even follow conversations.
- Insecure and lacking any bit of confidence
- Jealous of people with lives.
- Is it PDD-NOS that I should blame for my life?
Don't tell me: I should take prozac and numb my feelings so much that I don't care about the reality of my life.
When should I go and fly away?When should I go and fly away?
They're boarding your flight now.
Bon Voyage.
your crazy possibly so get lots and lots of helpWhen should I go and fly away?
Ignore the chuckle heads... They don't know any better really.
Why fly away at all? What a waste of a perfectly good life and perfectly good experiences...
How about putting your antisocial skills to work and use them to help someone else?
Write a book and explain yourself... That is how we find out how we are really not as damaged as we assumed that we were because when one person tells their tale. others come out of the wood work trying to relate to you... saying "Finally, SOMEONE understands me." Trust me... lesser men than you have become heroes giving the weak and downtrodden a voice of their own by proxy.
Try it!
Become a monk or a nun, take a vow of silence, be something for someone other than you... and give of yourself... You'll find that sometimes in life, the way we are sometimes takes it's sweet time to bringing us to where we need to be in life because of it.
Life is not cruel to us when it gives us specifics and asks us to find the keys to our locks... Life is cruel... when a man like Beethoven, goes deaf. That is cruelty!
Read this book...
The Souls Code Of Character And Calling. By: James Hillman.
Read it and understand how who and what you are... if you listen to your inner voice, it often leads you to what you need, where you need to go to be it, and who you were born to become in the first place.
Don't fly away sweet one... Not until your soul is ready. That is for it to decide... not you.
Have you been officialy dianosed with a PDD-NOS? It seems like u have a lot of issues going on and need professional assistance. Good luck to you, there is no easy answer.When should I go and fly away?
"To smile when the only thing you can do is cry, takes bravery. To act happy and laugh when you know that times are at their worse,
takes courage. To be joyous when the only good news is the best of the bad news, takes support. To be here and help others through the roughest times in life,takes LOVE..."
More people love and care about you then you think. Your time to fly away is not now. Keep your head up high!
fly away when you feel like you are to old to be living with mom and dad that may be today or 20 years from now. try and join clubs to get socially active and one day if it is meant to be you will find the one for you!
I want to just fly away sometimes too. Leave the world behind, and all of it's worry, and just be free. Free to be my true self without any suggestions from the outside world. To get away from what society considers important, free to experience what is truly important, with no interruptions. Yes, if you were to fly away, you would be totally alone, with no one to compare yourself to, and therefore you would finally be able to view yourself as normal. You would be free to completely be yourself, with no fear of judgment, or critisism, or humiliation.
But what is normal? Who ever defined what is normal? When was there ever a definite statement made by anyone, on what is normal? Normal, is only the behavior that the MAJORITY of the population exhibits. But does everyone exhibit this behavior? Why should someone who does not, be singled out and told that they need to be "fixed" , so that they can become like all the others? You are not broken. You just want to IMPROVE yourself, that's all. We are all individuals. Don't feel like you are strange for the way you are. You are not the only one who has dealt with this condition. Don't ever feel like you are alone.
Don't worry about social "acceptance". We will never be accepted by EVERYONE. There will always be differences in interests and ideas. What we do, is find the other people who have a similar interest in the things that we enjoy, and enjoy talking about. Don't worry about being accepted, learn what it is that makes you YOU. Remember what things you enjoy, what brings you happiness, what calms you down after a stressful day, what YOU and only you have an interest in. Remember your true self. Seek those things that bring you happiness. Then seek out others who have similar interests. This is the most important thing to finding happy relationships. Don't expect to have the same interests as the majority around you. I know I don't. But I seek those who do.
To begin to build a relationship with someone, you have to allow yourself to open up. You have to let go of the fears you have of "screwing up", and you have to allow yourself to be able to be close to someone. Remember : If someone truly loves you, they will love you for all your quirks and misperfections as well. They will be there for you as you try to better yourself, and they will not give up on you. Nobody is perfect, and a good person will understand that, and accept you for who you are, because they know who the person is underneath. And never think there are not good people out there. There are.
As far as not being up to date on the media, think about your interests. Is this actually something that you are interested in? Not everyone has an interest in these things. If you don't, that does not make you weird. Never force yourself to be interested in something that you are not. There are plenty of other things to talk about besides entertainment. That is called small talk. The really good conversations come from deeper interests.
A really good way to begin a relationship with someone is to ask them questions about themself. People love to talk about themselves. If you can't think of a topic of conversation to start, simply ask them a question that will get them talking about themselves. And then just make comments on their reply, such as "Wow, I don't know anything about that, that's interesting", or " yes, I enjoy that, too", and then build it up by adding your own opinions about the subject, or adding a story from your own experience. The more you talk to people, the easier it will become, and the more comfortable you will begin to feel. It takes practice, just like anything else. You can't expect to be extremely good at something, if it has not been practiced much in your life. It takes time, but you can do it. Don't give up on yourself.
Having a life doesn't necessarily mean having lots of friends and living the wild life. Some people only have one or two people they are very close to their entire lives. Some people even enjoy solitude. Having a life only means finding what it is that you enjoy doing, and doing it. That is different for everybody.
Don't be afraid of living. Think of everything that is out there for one to experience. This life is meant for us to experience it, and to enjoy it. A fear of social situations can definitely hold you back from experiencing life to it's fullest, but you are working on that. Just remember that you cannot please everybody. You have to stop worrying about how others will view you. What authority do they have? They have no authority over you. They have NO power to tell you that you cannot enjoy this life just like anyone else. This life is here to be enjoyed, and you are not an exception. Never let other's thoughts hold you back from getting everything out of life that you desire. It is the experiences we will remember. Don't be afraid to create good memories. This is what makes life worth living.
It's okay to feel the need to just fly away sometimes. We all feel like that at times. But just remember that there are more people out there who love you and care about you than you think. And there are more people to come in your life. Don't let them miss out on the experience of ever having known you. You have the ability to bring so many people, or maybe even just one person, so much happiness. And that makes it all worth it.
You have alot of life left to live, and alot of experiences to experience. Don't give up on life, or yourself yet. :)
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